As someone who has dealt with a recent kidney cancer diagnosis, I know firsthand there is a spectrum of emotions running through the head of someone who is ill. Some moments, it’s all smiles because I was feeling optimistic about the future. Some moments, I felt like I couldn’t  breathe because I was consumed with fear and all of the “what if’s” that were in my future – if I had a future. And of course, there’s every emotion in between. Anyone that is ill or dealing with a hardship will experience their own unique emotions and will process external support in different ways, …

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I started a new category on my blog titled Cancer where I can document the events throughout this new journey and express some of my feelings. Hopefully there won’t be too many posts in this category and I can close this chapter soon… The meaning of all of this is what I’m currently trying to understand. Some days I believe that my purpose is to use this hardship and difficult circumstance and turn this into an opportunity to connect and help others. Other times I get so down and constantly find myself questioning “Why me? Did I do something bad? Am I a terrible person?”…

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